“To the people who look at the stars and wish,”
“To the stars who listen— and the dreams that are answered.”
Read in May 2016
Read in April 2017
My Rating: 5 of 5 stars
Buddy read with the amazing, patient and most adorable Brittney who just summarized my thought by this insightful quote « This book has raised the standards of every book to follow ». You probably saved my sanity more than I can count, thank you ❤
This is a historic day. I’m going to publicly announce that I’ve changed my ship. It isn’t something that I usually do, like ever (no really, this is the first time). You see, I’m super faithful to my ships, they stay in my heart forever, no matter what. No matter how bad, and mean, I STAY BY THEIR SIDE. But here something happened. Something more. Something that surprised me from where I wasn’t expecting it. Before going any further with my review I need to explain more to you. I don’t hate Tamlin, I still cherish him and most of all I understand him. It’s just that I find myself loving Rhysand so much that a new word should be invented for what I felt during this book.
This situation makes me remember a real-life situation that happened to me a couple month ago. You see, I used to really dislike Justin Bieber’s songs. And now, he is making songs I enjoy, so I like him better. And I got this Bieliber acquaintance who told me “You like him because now everyone does, but I liked him first”. Well yes, maybe he was lame in a first place and now he actually sings good thinks that is why people start to like him. DUH. Well, I feel the same on Rhysand. And Tamlin. I don’t change my opinion on A Court of Thorns and Roses, Rhysand WAS creepy, and Tamlin a great fit for Feyre, BUT both their behaviour NOW make me rally to Team Rhysand (and also if you disliked Rhysand in the first book, and you don’t change ship in this book, I think that it means that you will probably dislike A Court of Mist and Fury so be prepared to either surprise yourself and change your ship, or to be disappointed).
This book reached my expectations and went far beyond, like a shooting star, flying its way to my MOST FAVOURITE BOOK EVER I often use the first book of a series to make my mind, but here it was more here to set the background. It truly was, since the beginning, what was needed to understand and enjoy A Court of Mist and Fury. As I said in my previous review that “The world-building is AMAZING, the relationship and character’s building is a little more flawed.” Now I understand why. It was the essential framework of a greater purpose. And Sarah J. Maas gave us hits about that. Many hints. I have just not been careful enough.
In this book, the romance and the plot are intertwined so magically well. It gives us depth, realistic emotions, bare feelings. And most of all, this book is about woman empowerment, embracing pain, accepting darkness. One word, Bravo.
Was the book predictable? I can’t say, I was Team Tamlin so I didn’t spend time imagining what would happen between Feyre and Rhys before starting this book. And once I was in it, I was so caught by the action that I just didn’t use my mind to try to guess what would happen next. I was perfect from the beginning and I just trusted Sarah to guide me. And I did well.
You know, I actually wrote 9 pages of frustrations and questions during my reading, and at the end, most of them were either answered or not accurate anymore. So if you experience those, feel reassured, Sarah J Maas is handling it.
Now we reached the spoiler part, I’m sorry, I have to, I’m a mess, and I know by experience that writing a review helps the healing part. I’ll do my best to tag strong spoilers but read the following with caution.
“I was not a pet, not a doll, not an animal.
I was a survivor, and I was strong.
I would not be weak, or helpless again. I would not, could not be broken. Tamed.”
As you probably know yet, this book does not introduce us to a love triangle. Feyre’s love interest stays on one person and one person only. This book starts with healing. Every single character is broken, their soul has been crushed, they have suffered beyond repair. They are not what they used to be when I first started this series. To me, Tamlin is in love with Feyre, and he will stay in love with her during this all book. His feelings are true, and perhaps a little bit increased by the need for stability after having his world tore apart. However, as I said earlier, this book is about healing, and Feyre and Tamlin have a different way to heal. Incompatible way of healing. Feyre needs to rediscover a taste for life, and Tamlin needs controlling and reassurance. From that point, I just knew that they needed to be apart, that perhaps that fate will bring them together again once they were better, but that for now, they needed to be separated in order to rebuild themselves.
But none of them understood that before it was too late. I have no other way to say it, but Tamlin snapped. He lost his mind. I read many reviews that say that Tamlin didn’t take time to listen to Feyre, to her needs, but to me, none of them listens to the other’s need. Feyre needed freedom no matter that Tamlin needed her to BE safe. He kept seeing her dead. I think that is something you never really recover. Seeing the person you love die in front of your eyes. That relationship was meant to explode. And it did.
“The issue isn’t whether he loved you, it’s how much. Too much. Love can be a poison.”
Tamlin made me feel two opposition emotions: I pitied him, A LOT, I couldn’t stop thinking about him, every time Feysand were together, I was in pain for Tamlin. But he also made me feel insecure. It was as if his need to protect Feyre made him the greatest danger for her. I am a claustrophobic person and at the moment he locked up Feyre, he lost most of my support.
The question I asked myself the most during this reading is “WHY DOES RHYSAND WANT TO HAVE FEYRE SO MUCH?”Was it satisfaction to take her from Tamlin? Was it because she was different, a mortal soul in an immortal body? When we meet Rhys for the first time, it is obvious that there is more to him than his sarcasm and his nonchalant behaviour, but I just kept myself asking what is it? What does he truly want? That was the creepy part of him. And Sarah J Maas gave me answers beyond my hope. Indeed this book gave us so many details about Rhys past, but also about some part of the previous book from his point of view. Those parts were what made me fall for him. The evolution in their relationship is so gradual, I cannot even tell where it shifts from friendship to more. Maybe deep down it has always been more, but the realisation takes enough time to make it real and subtle. But their teasing and flirting [and… more] made me blush more than I can count, yes it is gradual but I NEVER ONCE been bored.
“I’m thinking that I was a lonely, hopeless person, and I might have fallen in love with the first thing that showed me a hint of kindness and safety. And I’m thinking maybe he knew that—maybe not actively, but maybe he wanted to be that person for someone. And maybe that worked for who I was before. Maybe it doesn’t work for who—what I am now.”
This book wouldn’t have been the same without Rhysand Inner Circle. His advisers, his friends, his family. An equal amount of smart-mouthed and badass characters that were both male and female. First of all, there is Mor, Rhysand cousin. She has been through so much. She is the perfect example of who women are treated in the Court of Nightmare before Rhys arrival. She became close to Feyre and her presence was a needed breath. She redefined friendship and genuine kindness and open-mindedness. She contributed to Feyre’s sanity and was loyal to her, taking her duty as a friend above order that Rhys Might give her. Here is also lethal Amren, surprisingly nice for what she is supposed to be. And there are also Azriel and Cassian, both of them are powerful Illyrian warriors in charge of spying and protecting Rhysand lands.
And now I have to speak about Nesta. This girl is just badassness incarnate. So many laughs would have been missing without her.
Put words on my currents feelings is something that neither English nor French language can help me with, so I will explain it to you differently. Reading this book felt like walking in the streets of Velaris. Cheerful. Secret. Peaceful. Even in its worst parts, I felt HOME. And now, having ended it, I feel the same that when I saw the city being sacked. Powerless. Empty. Helpless. I need a mourning period really bad. Even if I continue reading, I know the feelings will never be enough now that I’ve read this perfect piece of dream.
Have you read this book? What did you think about it?